I recently saw a post about emotions and how they can be good (http://goodwomenproject.com/emotions/when-people-are-terrified-of-your-negative-emotions). This threw me for a loop; it seems like this topic has been coming up in my life a lot recently. A conversation with my sister showed me this a week or so ago and then I found this article. Is God trying to tell me something?
This question comes at an odd time too. I just returned to Butler for my second semester and feelings of doubt, unhappiness, and overwhelming sadness have occupied my thoughts for the better part of the last week. I normally feel like those feelings mean I am not trusting God and that I am doing something wrong. But this article has helped me to see that maybe my feelings are OK.
Let me say that again. My feelings are OK.
They are a response to the situation. They are telling me how I need to handle it. Maybe they are an indication that I am not trusting God but just because I have those feelings doesn’t mean that I am not trusting him. It doesn’t mean that I am doing something wrong. It is a way for me to see how I should proceed in this situation. My sadness at returning to school doesn’t mean that I am not trusting God, it means that I love and missed my family/friends from home. It means that I am HUMAN. I love my family…so what that I don’t want to leave them! If I moved in with them as a result of this feeling and never left because I was sad about leaving, that would be bad. I would miss out on so many opportunities.
But that is not happening; instead I went back to school anyway. I am acknowledged the feelings and praying about them! Trusting that God will help me through this. I am not saying I am not trusting God and that’s why I am feeling sadness. I am saying my pain comes from leaving home and so I can go from there withOUT beating myself about the fact that I am feeling sad. Because it is ALRIGHT!!
The article goes into such a great explanation about how this works and when it doesn’t. But my take away, what I am feeling is OK. It is OK to be mad, sad, angry, frustrated. Instead it matters how you deal with those feelings and what happens with those feelings.
*You can feel; it’s alright.*